notbuying_it

tired

2009-10-30T03:04:19Z

doubting myself. my decisions..ugh.

radiology is very boring..yet it is making more exhausted than any of my other rotations.

i don't like living away from jeremiah

a sad day

2009-10-24T04:42:44Z

So, today was my last day of OB/GYN. It has been a great rotation. My doc I was with agreed with my thoughts on a lot of things such as fetal monitoring, VBACS, breastfeeding etc. It definitely cemented OB/GYN into my list of choices of specialties. I sure did like delivering babies..and the surgeries!

Although, today I did witness my first circumcision. It was HORRIBLE. I can't believe people do that do their baby..it is so awful. The baby is all strapped down and what not and screams the worst scream ever. I just can't imagine doing that to my 2 day old child! Traumatizing.

Next I do Radiology..should be laid back with really great hours!

yum

2009-09-15T22:18:57Z

you have no idea how much I LOVE fried squash...yum.

I also am discovering on this rotation I love cutting people open haha. I love seeing people's insides and taking things out of them like gallbladders. SICK! I know..but I also love sewing them back up and making them feel better.

for tomorrow..two EGDS and one lap ventral hernia repair..good times.

oh and loving listening to new music...wish i had more time to find more!

Hello

2009-05-11T23:43:52Z

so...i have pretty much finished my second year! yay! however...i now have to buckle down and start studying for boards hardcore right now. ugh...i dont even want to think about it haha.

I am really really starting to stress out about it. Today! ugh. However, I have to study for ACLS which is making me even more stressed out and I feel like I shouldnt even sleep because I have all this work to do. I am really not looking forward to 12 hr study days starting next week..you have no idea!! boards blah.

Other than that I am happy to be done with classes and I get to spend more time with Jeremiah which is great. I am going to really miss him when I move to Charleston.

I cannot wait to come home for Erin's wedding. It will be amazing!! Besides, who knows when I will actually be back in Ohio....I do want to try to do a rotation there forth year. ahhhh..we are all growing up. crazy times.

oh and I am really sad that I am missing vetiver in athens tonight..two of my fav things in the same place at once...booooooo to school !!!

ahh!

2009-01-20T19:24:48Z

i am so excited. so hopeful. so elated. i couldn't imagine my heart feeling fuller than it does right now.

notbuying_it @ 2008-06-02T09:21:00

2008-06-02T13:23:36Z

so...i am now a second year medical student!! whoa right. finished up my first year! so great..so exciting. i am not going to lie though, i feel kinda lost not having to study right now lol. i feel like i have to be doing something, that i'm wasting time..lol

so now i am going home to spend a week in beantown. so excited to see all my friends and what not and then hang in cbus for a few days. should be great!! i miss everyone so much.

notbuying_it @ 2008-04-28T23:40:00

2008-04-29T03:46:27Z

well i learned something important today...

did you know you can be voted an officer of a club/student group a)without running for the position and b)not being a member of said group. well you can. hmm..how do i know because i found out today that i am now treasuer/secretary of the atlas club, umm still not sure how that happened. all i wanted was some free pizza...what can you do.

ps. why why why do i wait until the week before a test to start studying. kill me now

pps. i was in washington last week for a few days lobbying for medicare/medicade and physician rights and benefits. it was pretty much the greatest thing because i felt so good to be politically active again! (hasn't happened in sooooo long). i've decided i really need to do the protest stuff again..miss it like whoa. i will right more on my time there later after my test.

my brain has gone to mush

no more immuno!!!

no more path!! ... must learn those 100 drugs fast!!

notbuying_it @ 2008-04-15T11:44:00

2008-04-15T15:43:53Z

http://www.guardian.co.uk/world/2008/mar/19/japan

mr.wvsom

2008-04-11T20:20:10Z

so..just in case you wondered what we did for fun at school...

http://www.youtube.com/user/blueeyesak

yeah. we get bored. make up pagents..you know. its pretty much amazing.

Because i floss so hard ...

2008-03-27T02:04:39Z

hmm..back from spring break hey. it was warm and i got burnt. i really had a great time..but i got to get back to it hard. behind already..blah its only been 3 days haha.

pics:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/23739507@N02/sets/72157604262148660/

thats enough wasting time for now...

hmmm...k

2008-03-14T05:02:53Z

venting!

just took a practice test for the pathology part of the test tomorrow...blah. i dont know anything. i took the one for immunology and microbiology, not bad. wish there was one up for the neurology part. what i hate is all the questions are mixed together. it would be so much better if they had it separated out a little bit but its hard for my brain to go from neuro to path one question after the other you know...oh well. and the test tomorrow is four and half hours long, that is one long test to sit in one seat w/ no breaks (less i have to pee real bad) if you ask me. i'm not sure how they got 168 questions.hmm. at least i'm done with anatomy!! woo...and spring break starts tomorrow after the test. leaving for miami sat...there for two days. cruise leaves monday goes to key west and the cayman (sp?) islands for a few days..back sat. fly back sat. go to beckly for easter at josh's w/ some folks so i'm not alone for easter yay! if you want to get ahold me wait til then .. not sure if my cell works down there or not. then classes start again monday. booo..esp since in three wks we have a test in opp, geriatrics, behavioral medicine, pathology, immunology, microbiology and pharmacology. kill me now. haha...i love my life (got to keep positive). sample questions below from our practice test in case you are interested:

A 19-year-old woman presents with 5 days of fever (38◦C/101◦F) and sore throat. She reports that she has felt fatigued for the past week and has difficulty swallowing. A physical examination reveals generalized lymphadenopathy. If this patient has a viral infection, a CBC will most likely show what hematologic findings?

A 40-year-old man complains of a 2-week history of increasing abdominal pain and yellow discoloration of his sclera. Physical examination reveals right upper quadrant pain. Laboratory studies show elevated serum levels of alkaline phosphatase (520 U/dL) and bilirubin (3.0 mg/dL). A liver biopsy shows portal fibrosis, with scattered foreign bodies consistent with schistosome eggs. What inflammatory cells are most likely to predominate in the portal tracts in the liver of this patient?

Clubbing of the digits, periosteal new bone formation on the metatarsals, metacarpals, and proximal phalanges, and arthritis of adjacent joints is a paraneoplastic syndrome most often associated with carcinoma of the ... answer is the lungs (yeah, i dont get it either)

and an easy one yay! In which cell function is BRCA1, a gene mutated in women with familial breast carcinoma, involved?

oh oh oh to touch and feel various girls vaginas and hymens

2008-02-25T16:32:23Z

cranial nerves ... easy to learn their names and orders that way.

anyways.

in class right now..pathology. blah. hate dr. shear, but really i'm just posting because of what he just said:

some of you are anti-stem cell research
some of you are pro life
some of you dont believe in using discarded embryos to help others
some of you are pro bush
i'm just here to tell you the facts
you can just live in your own little world for right now i guess...

notbuying_it @ 2008-02-12T20:46:00

2008-02-13T01:48:02Z

umm..well i should be studying. booo..instead i started a flickr site! yay medical school pics..i'll add more later

http://www.flickr.com/photos/23739507@N02/

bob's my best friend...

2008-01-27T02:24:50Z

so...studying right now. not going so well. lol. hitting my brick wall possibly soon. whatev right..i think these tests are going to be wake up calls to get me going again. i need a jump start.

plans for the week:

sunday: study (hopefully) about 15 hrs of neruroanatomy and endocrin (plus some resp. physio)
Monday: exam (physio, endocrin, neuroanatomy) 8 -12 then study anatomy for about 10 hrs
tuesday: anatomy exam 8-10, ant. practical 230 - 4 (1/3 of anatomy head and neck exam), sleep!! night time! dinner potluck w/friends, bowling?, the pub? eh...who knows
wednesday: skiing, coming back listening to the lectures i skip during the day, going to a letter writing party for obama
thursday: class...going out..the fort? hmm.
friday: class, lunch w/ kids who are interviewing, skiing,
sat: skiing
sunday: skiing? coming back, studying, football, studying. amazing! no studying for like five days. whoa..i know i shouldn't do that but i cant help myself!

wish me luck!!

oh yeah, my skeleton and i have become best friends. i now believe bob will accompany me on my car rides home. he is nice to talk to..good listener you know. although he does need some dental work and he is looking a little pale

notbuying_it @ 2007-12-15T19:00:00

2007-12-16T00:01:33Z

med school sucks. yep.

can't wait to come home for break

at the same time i dont want to...i dont feel like seeing anyone or doing anything. ha..but that hopefully will change.

i will study yet another 6 hrs today (in addition to the six i already have)

thinking about buzzing my hair off. sick

hating dr.brown

currently getting iced in at school, however that is okay because i live here anyways. only home when i sleep (tell me why i pay rent again?)

dr. harrington emailed me and asked what i was up to. i am soo not replying. still hate him a smidge

well, back to it i guess. more physio, biochem and nutrition for me tonight. (eating pizza and chips while i study nutrition makes me feel great!)

ps. dont really hate anyone, just stongly dislike.

Its a love hate relationship

2007-11-08T15:37:57Z

oh med school, how you are killing me. eh..whatever. i wanted it right?

so, i'm sitting in class right now. learning about EKGs ... so boring. can't handle it. i really dont care. isn't that horrible? probably. it is kinda important. lol.

school is going well. i'm always tired. always studying. always having no time at all. thats okay though. i'm actually getting used to it. i'm getting used to studying for once, which is nice. i just wish i could pay attention longer than i do. if i dont learn, things won't work out. i'm doing pretty crappy in physiology, but doing pretty okay in biochem and anatomy. actually all my friends want to study anatomy with me. it is the only thing i like and the only think i get. our cadaver is so messed up, i love seeing what else i can find on her that is abnormal. fun fun!

i've also started hanging out with more people in school from different groups which is good i think. i can't stick to one group of friends. i have also started hanging out and talking to people at the wild bean. people seem so nice, but put off by med students. oh well. i think i finally found some kids who remind me of my friends from posac..oh how i miss those days.

well i better get back to the p qrs, and t waves of ekg. blah

notbuying_it @ 2007-10-11T19:09:00

2007-10-11T23:09:54Z

umm...so freakin excited:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4BBaIGgoehs

yeah.

notbuying_it @ 2007-10-06T00:55:00

2007-10-06T04:56:15Z

crazy study time..duh. my life. haha..i spent my friday night in the histo lab looking through my scope at cartilage and muscle fibers. fun fun!

excited for next weekend..actually going to a show here (gasp!). not sure what to think..but i got to take what i can get...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=poSpgJbB05M&mode=related&search=#

my current life

2007-09-18T04:40:44Z

so..this will be short...because i'm studying. all the time.

medical school is tough. life consuming. in a good way. i love it and hate it. i study every day for about 4 hours and on sat and sundays usually about 10 (this weekend i did 14 since i had a test today and a test tomorrow). is that insane? maybe. i know so much more now then i did just a few weeks ago. i cant believe it. our anatomy exam is tomorrow. i have the exam from 8 - 3 with an hour break for lunch. morning is written where we get cases and have to answer questions on them (i.e. someone comes into the emergency room and has lost feeling on her medial side of her foot..what happened, what nerve is affected, what muscles, what blood supply etc). then afternnon is practical of lower limb and back. this includes osteology, nerve intervations, blood supply (veins and arteries), muscles, insertions origins, x rays, cross sections, MRIs and all that fun stuff! can't wait

today i had exams in physio, histology,developmental genetics, biochemistry. they sucked. a lot. each exam had about the same material you would have on a midterm or final even in undergrad. they were all in one exam so we had to switch in our brain from one subject to another. there were also questions which involved material from all the subjects combined. sucky third order questions. i hate you. you will kill me. but dont think i'm complaining. im not. i am soooo happy to be here. and it will make me a good, no, great doctor someday. i love it and it makes me feel like i'm living. i'm so into it (infact so into it the other day in the lab i didin't realize i didn't have gloves on til like 15 min into it..gross!)

sorry if this doesnt make sense..i've gotten like five hours of sleep the past three days lol.

it is starting...

2007-08-27T16:44:29Z

so. i had my first medical school exam today. well real one, we had medical terminology last week and it was really easy. i hope this one went okay...i know i didn't do great but i'm praying for a B. lets see..it seems as if all i have been doing is studying or reading or studying or in the anatomy lab looking at muscles and their insertions, origins, innervations etc..it is starting to pile on. this past weekend i studied for about ten hours on sat and about eleven yesterday. crazy! and on that note..i have more studying to do right now for my clinical exam tomorrow and opp...funfun.

ps. rilo kiley is on probation as my favorite band due to the suck that is their new album...

notbuying_it @ 2007-07-21T01:46:00

2007-07-21T05:53:15Z

so..my last week at home is coming to an end. i was lucky enough to see most of the people i wanted to say my 'goodbyes' to. i will prob leave on tuesday or wednesday. i am not at all ready. i worked at packing all day. i mean ALL day. ugh. now i realize that there is no way that all my shit is going to fit into my car. i am totally going to have to repack and leave some things here til later. oh well. i'm seeing matt tomorrow and sunday!! that will be nice. last weekend i was lucky enough to see both my sisters, elena and erin.

i am not ready for school. i am not prepared. eh, what can i do? nothing..but study my ass off when i get down there. it will be nice to meet people and settle in though. i have too many clothes. i think i will go through them once more down there and get rid of some more things.

also, when i was packing today i stumbled across some old notes from sean from high school. is it weird that i felt like i could puke. ha. grossed me out. seriously. what was i thinking. lol

another thing. some people suck. really suck. yep

notbuying_it @ 2007-06-30T00:03:00

2007-06-30T04:04:48Z

heyhey...anybody..july 15th, mirah, wexner center?? come on..

notbuying_it @ 2007-04-25T19:07:00

2007-04-25T23:18:09Z

so...i never update because i dont really have anything to say, but..

it looks like i will be heading down to lewisburg for medical school in the summer sometime (july or august). i feel like i should start studying now. eh. i really never heard back from any other schools, but that is okay. i just really wish i would have heard back from ou. it would be better and cheaper. as of now i am taking out $78,000 in loans for just next year. crazy! my dad just found me a really great apartment down there, which is nice because when my mom and i were down there we couldn't find anything that wasn't creepy. it is a little more expensive, but it is new and i can have my kitty!

matt and i are great. he is working a lot and i see him about two days a month, which is fine but kinda hard. i wish i was going to school closer to him, but i am sure he will come and visit. there is an airport right by lewisburg, but tickets are around $400 round trip (boo). so it looks like he will be driving the 5 and half hours to see me.
we just had our four year anniversary (it doesnt mean anything). just for fun i got him saves the day I'm Sorry I'm Leaving 7". it was a litte expensive for a freakin record..but The Way His Collar Falls is his favorite song..so yep.

i miss everyone. wish there were more people to hang out with here. i never make any effort. although i do hang out with some of the shawnee folk when they are home. chris makes me laugh as does the whole hribar family...and being in the penthouse always brings back good memories..ha

omg..fashion week!

2007-02-05T06:06:45Z

my favs:

http://www.style.com/fashionshows/collections/F2007RTW/complete/thumb/YAZROUEL
http://www.style.com/fashionshows/collections/F2007RTW/complete/thumb/EFETH
http://www.style.com/fashionshows/collections/F2007RTW/complete/thumb/REYES (esp the 25th)
http://www.style.com/fashionshows/collections/F2007RTW/complete/thumb/TULEH (minus the fur)
http://www.style.com/fashionshows/collections/F2007RTW/complete/thumb/UBAMBOO (for men)
http://www.style.com/fashionshows/collections/F2007RTW/complete/thumb/TREESE (love the tights!)

prob will update as the week continues..yay!

what?

2006-06-07T19:09:20Z

Is this for real? i hate ohio. seriously.

http://www.saveroe.com/blogs/2006/06/05/ooooooohhhhio